That hard time.

It’s not always easy to be strong all the time. We are humans and we cry when we get hurt and feel low when things are tough. How I am feeling now is not easy to explain. I am scared of letting down my own expectations and also responsibilities towards my loved ones. I definitely feel alone sometimes,there is no one I can talk about my concerns. Something that I can’t tell my family at least cause I don’t want them to worry about me. This is the best place where I can say anything about my feelings. Cause I am pretty sure that no one is interested in my blog writing. It’s scary to plan such a big step but I keep saying to myself that I am unique that’s why I am doing this. There is ocean of uncertainties and I am moving with just a boat of positivity and believe. The current of ocean is continuously trying to unbalanced my boat but I can’t give up. I believe i have one quality of not giving up and I will keep going on with it. Will I drown or cross the ocean? don’t know ,but I’ll carry on. However hard it’s going to be, I will not give up. Because it’s not mere a dream to cross the ocean but it’s a wish of being free and independent.

I wanted my father and brother to be proud on me. By the way, my younger sister is also on a mission of being herself and create an identity of herself. I feel really proud to see her determination and hard work .

I have learned one thing during this whole scary thing that life is mixture of sweetness and bitterness. Sometimes you are delighted to have sweet but you also need hot flavour sometimes. Sometimes you don’t expect and it happens ,I believe that’s the beauty of life. Good night to me.