Yeah right, it is complicated because relationships are. It is cause we plan something and reality becomes something else. Same was with me, I was believing in some fairy tale love from not so real person but I think that’s the way it is. Right now, I am thinking about it because if I won’t now then it’s going to make me confuse all the time. Actually, I am thinking about the emotions I am feeling right now. And this is not at all the feeling of love for that person. It is actually why I do care or affect with his name. Maybe because no one forgets their first love, it was stupid but I had. So, do I need to really affected by him or I just relax? Of course the second one. Thinking of it, I don’t see him in my life again never. Because I would never trust people like him and the second thing I have learned from that is I love my independence and I don’t need someone to tell me what I need to do or control my life at all.
I am thankful to my ex because of him I have learned a great lessons about people and their behavior at least a smaller view. I have realized that I am who is important to me. I love myself because no body does me and thanks to everyone that has taught me love myself.
So, I think what’s really important that I give time to myself and see why that emotion is complicating. And I did and it help me to understand that all I need to listen to me. And everything will become clear.
Self-wanderer 