Day3.

I was just listening to his songs, and the stories of those songs. And in one song, he was talking about how that song came, and what made him write that song.

He said, that song was about a girl and she liked him, he liked her but they aren’t together;but the biggest thing for me was that he still likes her. That maybe they could be together in future , that maybe that girl also wants to be with him.

And it’s crazy for me to think that I can’t be with him because of that. But,I also know that this is how it works, who are meant to be together, are gonna be together. Whether it’s me or any one else. That there’s always gonna be two way for me-(1)- that I will end up with him or,(2)- without him, and with my own misery and pain. This is the reality, and I know that already,whether I am gonna get pain or love, it’s all on me , not on anyone else.

I know that it’s even crazy to think to be with someone who doesn’t even have knowledge of my existence, and has surrounded by too many beautiful and really amazing girls(these words are good to sound, that’s the only reason I am using this, otherwise I would only feel jealous, right?)with beautiful hearts.

But, still I have my own reasons to think about you, thinking that maybe, even if there is 0.00001% possibility that I can be with him, then I wanna try. I am ready to be in pain afterwards, but at least I will try. At least, I will let him know that I exist and my feelings for him too.

Recently, I have decided to follow the “universe’s sign”, and then i found him. He is exactly the guy, I was imagining in my head for so long,that was the first sign. He loves to tell his stories (personal experiences, his feelings, his imagination, n all) and I love to tell and listen stories too. This was the second sign. Also,I feel connected to his songs. Like, “paper crown “,” let me down slowly “. Like him,I have my own stories too, but I can’t tell that to anyone. He is really simple yet really honest, who wouldn’t fall in love with him.

The problem is that I wanna believe in these signs, but I also heard about that people who are similar, doesn’t really works. I don’t know even if it’s true. And all these feelings, I am having is really wierd cause I don’t if love of my kind even exist or not. But, I am gonna go this road unless I don’t see a dead end. It’s definitely worth trying to explore such a beautiful journey of finding someone I believe has made for me. Even for that very little chances,I wanna assume you as my man(at least till the moment you’re single).