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I was asking myself question today that I can’t talk about how i feel and how difficult it is for me to be silent.

I was asking the question that is it really gonna be different being in America than being here?

And first I felt terrified because I thought this is some of those questions that comes out from fear that maybe it will stop me from me being me, me living in America.

But with processing on, I think I have an answer, and that answer is yes I am gonna still live there even if I couldn’t able to find someone talk, even if it’s gonna be exactly same as here, cause the biggest point is that even if everything’s gonna be same, i’ll be happy cause that’s gonna be my decision, and life that I have chosen for myself. I am ready to go through any anything but first I want to have my life in my own hand, nobody telling me what I should do, how to do, who to be?

It’s just gonna be with all my mess, misery but still peace and satisfaction of knowing that this is me, I did everything I could. Love myself and I will have my life no matter what.