I am oversensitive, and I know that, it kills me having these uncontrollable emotions, but at the same time I feel so good. Yeah I have heard it that pain feels good sometimes, I think this is that time for me. I am overwhelmed with my feelings but I feel good about having these overwhelming emotions. I think I am getting crazy, feeling good in pain. At one side, I don’t wanna feel this alone, and holding my tears too hard, but on the other times, I feel lucky to experience this much pain for love.
It happens when I see some full of emotions dramas,but I feel so connected to all those pains and misery those people were suffering from. I watched a show today, and the passionate love in the show that I deeply felt connected with is the both kinda feeling -best and worst.
You know what I always hoped for to have someone who can love me passionately. But with time, I realized that I can’t control if someone can love me that passionately as I expect, but I know one thing very clearly that I want to become a person I always hoped for myself to be with, I wanna become my best self, so that I will feel like I loved my life, this world and this whole universe with open heart. I just wanna love unconditionally every single thing in this universe just like this universe does to us.
I know that these words feel like just I am trying to sound that I am a really nice person, who loves everyone, and trust me that’s not true.
But that’s what I am saying that I wanna do only one thing, and that is just love anything, everything because to me, love is the only way, I can be happy, love is the only way I can be truly happy. And trust me, If I want anything from my life then it’s happiness and love.
I feel like I have control over my love, and with this life I have I want people to see that how powerful love can be, I want them to see this deep love I feel in my heart, I am just learning to love my life, this world unconditionally cause that’s the only I can feel my real self, only Love can show me that I am much more than I know or anyone knows.
Self-wanderer 