So hard.

It’s really hard to do something you have no idea about, and no one you know can help you.  I am right now, trying to make sure that I will get what I really wanna have, so bad, and that is to have my “life”.

You know things get hard when, people on the other side think of me as everyone else, they ask for things that I never have. Yeah, maybe I can just tell them that you’re asking the wrong thing to the wrong person.

You know, my truth is that I have only me right now, and maybe even in future too. And when I see those people on the other side ask me to let other person portrait as they’re always with me, it just breaks my heart. I feel like, all my hard work, and all those difficult moments I have been through has been overlooked, cause no one else has any idea how difficult it’s to me. And that kinda person has that much value.

Yeah, maybe because of the rules I believe that our elders, mature and sensible people of our societies has made some rules to work things smoothly. But, I am sorry this is totally bullshit, it’s a lie that there is anything smooth in our human world, we humans are so complex, we can’t be same even on one day to the other, and all the rulers thinks they can run things smoothly, yeah definitely if they wanna live in lie.

But, I am done with pretending, it’s the worst thing I have been doing for so long, and it’s been killing me from inside. I am tired of showing that everything is fine when it’s not at all.

Why the hale, we as kids , we always get taught why this mature world of ours let us learn ourselves, and let us figure out who we really think we are.

Why they need to be the one to ask, why not we? Since our childhood people start training us to be like them so that we can fit in the world right now, but why we should become a fit. Instead I believe that this mature human world need to understand that there is no fit, we all are completely different from each other, let’s this world make fit for us, not we. I think as a human we should always focus on growth and evolution, then that means that we all are changing constantly just like our planet, and this universe then why our mature human rulers want us to be the same.

I am who I am, and always gonna be.