Scared.

I get scared easily, actually almost every day of worst. Whenever I hear something bad happening outside, its scares me of all the worst possibilities and it holds me like I am tied up in an iron chain that I can’t break.

I feel like looking over the worst, I am missing on the beauty of the world. That how beautiful this world is even it’s so broken, that even it’s like dieing day by day there is hope,hope for love. I really feel worst cause of all these fears I have, but I am realising that in order of doing that I am missing out on something so precious and beautiful,i.e. love. If I am holding up still cause I know there’s love,hope, and there’s my life.

Even though these feelings I don’t like to have and come across often, but this also is a feeling which make me feel that I am alive, that I am feeling something.

What I am really scared of right now is someone else’s judgement can decide for me, I feel like I am not free to do what I wanna do, free to choose, and free to be. Otherwise I don’t think so I would still be here. I don’t maybe I am seeing narrowly, but still it’s a truth right now. But still I am gonna keep going. Yup that’s it for today.