Sometimes I am too scared, sometimes I get this really scary anxiety and I feel like I don’t know how to escape that. And that’s always scare me… What if I end up there again.But then I tell myself that no matter where I will be, however deep n dark I will fall I will always find my way back to me.
It’s “Him”, I don’t really know what’s that….that always bring me to him. I don’t know. At first I thought whatever’s happening..,it’s showing that we ain’t meant to be. But since past few days, I have been feeling like there’s some higher energy bringing me to him. I don’t know if that’s true but there were few things happened , that made me think that way.
I don’t know where I will end with him, but I know one for now, that I will take any chances that I can to have any moments with him. I know one thing for sure, that whenever I am around him I feel happy. That whenever I see him I feel so good, so happy , I like doing things for him.
Yeah I think about it that possibly it will end one day. I mean for sure, it’s going to end some day, but I don’t want to think about that right now. For now however long I can I will keep looking for ways to be around him, to see him everyday if possible, as long as I can. All I want to do is live right now thinking about him, or trying for a chance with him. Cause right now I can, and as long as I can I will try.
Because right now it’s possible, right now I have time and it’s not going to come again. So I want to try my best ,so that once these moments will be gone I will have no regrets.
And honestly for now, I get to see him almost everyday, and I had so many beautiful moments with him already. I have some beautiful pictures with him, actually I only have one with him, but I have few of him. I don’t know if it’s love or what but I am not really about the name right now, all I care about that I cherish this feeling that I get whenever I am near him or I see him.
So, I wanna live with him right now yeah I know maybe not together but it’s with him even from a little distance. I am going to treasure every single moment that I will have with him. Every single thing that will remind me of him is going to be really special for me, for my whole life.
I know that one day I will leave this place but as long as I am here or even when I will leave I am never going to forget him…, never.
So, this one’s for him, for something so beautiful yet not so easy❤️❤️♥️.
Self-wanderer 